I have so much stuff to do but I haven't done any of it. Wee! *sings the procrastination song*
Actually, I just spent the last two hours watching a Japanese movie called Battle Royale. It's possibly one of the most fucked up things I've ever seen...well...actually it's not as strange as some other Japanese movies I've seen, or some French ones for that matter, but I digress. My boyfriend kept going on about it (I really don't know where he heard of it) and I told him I'd see if I could find it on the internet and...vio la! Thank you, internet! Anywho, basic plot: a middle school class trip turned worst nightmare when the kid's are abducted to an island where they are told the only way off is to kill all their classmates. It's all very Stephen King-ish. (If you've never read his story 'The Long Walk', I highly recommend it.)
Well, I geuss I should do the things that I'm supposed to be doing...ah, crap. I don't feel like it. I'm lazy. XD
Hmm, I have to make a list of things I want to buy at Otakon this year. I've been saving up and I think this year might be a record spending year. Or, maybe not. It'll be kinda hard to beat last year. Heck, I just finished paying off last year's Otakon. Heh. Actually, I originally wasn't planning on spending heaps this year but I keep seeing things I want....ah well. Gotta spend it somewhere! Wee!
I'm sorta excited because I heard a rumor that Tokyopop has liscenced Fruits Basket. Yay.
Hrm. What else happened today?
Ah, Latoya's back from vacation, so work is back to normal...sorta. It's so crazy. I have all these projects I need to do on top of everything else and no time! I have to be manager on duty two days in a row every friggin week. I'm complaining to Rob, dammit. I mean, it's just not fair. I only work six and a half hour days so that means for the two days I'm manager on duty I only get to spend two and a half hours in my dept. working and getting stuff done. Which really amounts to jack shit because I have to do schedules and stuff during those hours. So, I hardly get to spend any time getting done the things that I need to get done. It's so frustrating. And on Monday's it seems like all I do is go to meetings! EX:
10:00 am: Arrive at work, begin working in Home Fashions.
10:30 am: Resource meeting in Men's.
10:45 am: Back to working in Home Fashions.
11:00 am: Safety Meeting in the training room.
11:15 am: Back to working in Home Fashions.
12:00 pm: Lunch.
12:30 pm: Back to working in Home Fashions.
2:00 pm: MAP meeting in the training room.
3:00 pm: Staff meeting in the training room.
4:00 pm: Covering the Fine Jewelry dept. because there was a call out.
5:00 pm: Time to go home.
See why I don't get anything done? See? SEE???? THIS is why I am so frustrated at work all of the time. It's fucking ridiculous. Really and truly. I mean, I only did about three hours of working in my dept. And half of that time was spent running back and forth from the floor to the stockroom. Gah. Oh well. Screw it.
Mee-imouto: Thanks for the hugs, I can surely use them. ^_^ *hugs back*
serena was here @ 9:48 PM
I'm tired, but what else is new?
This past week of work totally exhausted me. I slept in today and then went out with Jason for awhile. We drove all the way to Timonium for some reason only to eat at Pizza Hut before heading back home. We stopped at Best Buy where I picked up some anime and the first season box set of Hercules. I used to love that show. Not in a screaming fan girl type of way, I just enjoyed watching it.
Some of the best times in my life were my last years of high school and my earlier years in college. I used to spend every single weekend at my cousin Dawn's apartment on the other side of the city. She used to pick me up every Friday and we'd drive through the heart of Baltimore to get to her place instead of taking the faster highway route. It was more fun that way. I can't remember if it was Friday nights or Saturdays, but we used to make popcorn or cookies or sometimes both and just hang out and watch Hercules and Xena and Sinbad (which, sadly, was only on for two seasons) and of course Forever Knight when it was still on (we used to be soooo addicted to that show). Back then the Walmarts in the area were still open 24 hours and we'd go there in the middle of the night just for fun and then eat at Denny's...mainly because there's not much to do that late at night. Then, on Sunday's we'd sleep in all day. Sometimes it really was all day. I can remember one time we didn't get in til six in the morning and we slept in til five pm. Ah, the good old days. Anywho, seeing Hercules makes me remember those good times.
Speaking of good times...I went out with Dawn Friday night. We went to dinner and then went to see Charlie's Angels. Fun was had by all. I was telling her that I'd like to throw a party and she said I could throw it at her house if I wanted. Yay. So, party at Dawn's everyone! Richard, you'd come to my party, wouldn't you? And Anne, of course you're invited. Greg already said he's coming so we'll have plenty of entertainment. XD
Well, back to work tomorrow. Oh, how fun.
serena was here @ 9:11 PM
Ok...this is new...blogger is new...wow. Ok.
Anywho, on to blogging.
Last night: The concert ROCKED! The Dixie Chicks ROCK! At one point (when they played White Trash Wedding) I wanted to do a hoe down. Heh. And they played Sin Wagon as an encore. I LOVE that song. It's so great. Wee!
The seats we had were awesome. They were right near the stage and on eye level with everything. It was so much fun. Michelle Branch opened for them. I was surprised because I thought they'd have some dinky country band opening for them. I was so happy because I LOVE Michelle Branch. Everyone was so good live. I love live music. I must go to more concerts this summer. I have to check and see who else is coming around. Yeah.
At the end of the concert giant confetti was propelled skyward from this thing on the floor near our section. It was so cool! It was raining giant confetti chips on us! I almost choked on one! It was fun! Heh. XD My mom picked up a bunch and put it in her pocket. Then, when we were walking back to the car she kept throwing it everywhere. (I guess I get my goofiness from my mother.)
Work today was ok. Some things went well, some did not. Of course, there's always a billion and one things that I have to do. I really felt like I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off for most of the day. We had a MAP meeting today and after the meeting Keith told me that he needed me to stay behind to talk to me. At first I was afraid that I had done something wrong. But then he said that he wanted to let me know that our district manager had been really impressed with me the day before at our afternoon resource meeting. Keith said that he thinks I'm really on my way to becoming an assitant store manager. I was just sitting there thinking...wow. I mean, the District Manager was impressed with me...wow. And I wasn't even trying to impress anyone. Damn I'm good. XD
My poor Jason was sick and had to stay home from work today. Now he has to work tomorrow night so I won't see him until Sunday. It's all good though because now I made plans to hang out with my cousin. I've been meaning to spend time with her forever but I'm always busy.
Mee-imouto: Thanks for the well wishes! *hugs* My knee feels almost completely better now. Yay.
Anne: Yay. My brother looks like Jesus. Hah.
Richard: I'm so glad you came to the concert with us. Yay. Now...I'll need to think of some way for you to repay me.... XD
serena was here @ 9:16 PM
Well, my price for sitting home yesterday is that I now have to work on Friday. Grr. Dammit. Why do my plans always backfire? I mean, really. What the hell. I always get stuck doing everything all the time. I'm sick of it. Sometimes I get really really really frustrated with that place. I love my job but sometimes I wonder if it's worth all the aggravation.
I'm listening to the Dixie Chicks right now. The concert is tomorrow. My brother came up to my room a little while ago with all the DC cd's and I just looked at him and said, 'What is this? Homework?' Then he said something about making a list of songs that I had to memorize by tomorrow night. Oh, but it's ok because if I have trouble remembering any of them he knows them all. My brother is a complete loser sometimes. Ok, most of the time. Although, he is amusing. XD
Speaking of my little bro...this lady, Trish, at my work had a funny story for me about him today. She asked me if my dad drove a pickup and I said yeah. She then said she thought she saw him and my brother driving on North Pt. the other day around five o'clock. I said it was probably them because they are normally on that road around that time on thier way home from work. Trish knows my brother because he used to work at Sears with us a while ago. Anywho, she said that she was driving along and her four year old daughter says to her, 'Look Mom! It's Jesus!' and she's pointing over at the truck next to them. Trish recognized my brother and thought the whole thing was quite amusing. It's funny, really. My brother has long dirty blond hair and an often times scraggly looking beard. When he wears his hair down and has his glasses off he does kinda resemble those European paintings of our Lord. And I find the whole thing funny because it's not the first time someone has called him Jesus. But it's just so funny to imagine a four year old saying it. Hehehe. I'm laughing right now just thinking about it. XD
serena was here @ 7:54 PM
I had a great time at Jon's house despite the fact that Jason and I got into a huge argument on the way there. He apologized for being an ass and fun was had by all. A little too much fun by some. Carrie got trashed. There's nothing more fun that watching your best friend rolling around on the floor laughing insanely at anything that moves. Of course I dared her to drink a double shot of jaggermeister (actually paid her ten bucks to do it thinking she wouldn't) and the little lush downed the damn thing. Then she drank four more and a bacardi later on. Damn, she can drink. O.O
My knee feels almost completely better now.
I finished reading Harry Potter. I'm almost sad that I'm finished reading it. Here comes my thoughts on it, so I'll put up a spoiler warning.
SPOILERS ABOUND FOR HP BELOW
Overall, I really enjoyed the book.
I was a bit fed up with Harry though. I mean, I know he's been through a lot but damn. He needs to have a good cry and let someone comfort him instead of all of this pent up rage stuff. He was really starting to get on my nerves. However, that's partly why I like Harry so much. Because he's so far from perfect. In fact, he was so angry at times during the book I almost felt like shouting, 'Don't go over to the dark side, Harry!' Then again, I'm a total geek. Getting back on track, I think Harry has major problems trusting people and considering what he's been through I can see why, but he really needs to start to let others help him. He can't do it alone. But now it's even worse, because it seems like in the end he'll have to.
I loved when Harry went into Snape's memories. (well, not so much the fact that Harry was voilating Snape's privacy, that was SO wrong, but the fact that it allowed us to see bits of the past.) I felt really bad for Snape, and also bad for Harry that he found out his parents weren't so perfect, but only human like everyone else. In fact, this brought to light several things about Snape as well. He's a bastard, but at least he has a reason. And of course, he's not a total bastard. I like Snape. I feel like Harry has a lot in common with him.
Ginny. Oh my God, I love you Ginny. She is so cool all of a sudden. It seems like she's done a lot of growing up all of a sudden. I'm just so happy with the way she's turning out. I am so hoping that she and Harry get together. He needs someone like her. *happy sigh*
Fred and George were cool as well. I loved thier pranks for once and at least they were useful instead of just being perpetual goof offs. Not to say there wasn't plenty of that going on, though. Heh.
And Dumbledore. Wow. I was mad at him half through the book. Mainly because he never tells Harry anything. All these horrible things happen and he doesn't tell him anything! I was pissed. But then, at the end, I felt bad for him too. Because even though Dumbledore kicks ass, he's still only human too. And he can make mistakes as well. I think that was a kind of humbling moment in the book. Or at was, at least for me.
Sirius...I have to say I wasn't that surprised. For some reason, I had a feeling it would be him, I don't know why. I have mixed feelings. Sure he was cool, but he also liked to instigate trouble. So, am I sorry to see him go? Not really. I never was really attached to him at all (although my brother is going to be soooo super pissed--Sirius is his favorite. ah well.) I feel bad for Harry in that he lost someone he cared about, but that doesn't mean he has to act all pissy. Deal with it. I think that's his problem. He doesn't deal with stuff, he dwells on it.
I liked Luna's seeming indifference to everything around her.
McGonagall was awesome. I love her more than ever. XD
Hagrid was exasperating.
Hermione and Ron were just right. I felt bad that Harry kept taking his anger out on them, though. I really wanted one of them to whack some sense into him at one point.
Umbridge was a wonderfully wicked witch. I really really hated her. Really. I was half hoping the centaurs would tear her to bits.
So, erm, to sum up. I liked the book overall, although I could have done with less whining from Harry. He needs to get over himself. At points the story was beginning to depress me though. Things were starting to look a little bit too much like nazi Germany for my comfort. But, as always, I managed to be smiling at the end. Just hope I'm still smiling by the end of book Seven. Whenever the hell that comes out. ^_^
serena was here @ 8:00 PM
Supposed to be on my way to Jon's any minute now. I'm just waiting for J to call.
I'm so tired. I was exhausted yesterday. I wound up struggling to stay up til eleven-thirty when I'm normally up til at least one. Maybe it's the motrin making me sleepy. *shrugs*
My knee feels a little better today. Hopefully it will continue to get better. Maybe my doctor will call tomorrow with the x-ray results.
I just got my hair cut. Yay. I'm so happy. It was getting a little too long to be comfortable.
I geuss I'll just sit around reading til J calls. Hmm.
*wanders off drowsily*
serena was here @ 1:07 PM
I spent all morning and most of the afternoon limping around work. The swelling in my knee, which had been going down, is now worse. Well, at least the motrin is keeping the pain away.
My Harry Potter book arrived this morning while I was at work. My father took it up to my room and left it on my bed for me. He can be nice once in a while. ^_^ I have a feeling I'm going to be spending the next several hours sitting around with my knee propped up reading. Wee.
Tomorrow I have to go into work in the morning for four hours for a meeting. Then J and I are supposed to be going to Jon's house for a cookout. Which reminds me...I have to call Care Bear and get directions.
Ack. I better get going. It's getting ready to storm again. Gah. I'm so sick of rain.
serena was here @ 5:06 PM
Well, the doctor visit was less painful than I had anticipated. All she did was feel around my knee, give me a perscription for motrin and send me down to x-ray. They have to send the x-rays out to get read and then she's supposed to call me when she gets them back. I'm supposed to keep my knee elevated and do heat and ice ten minutes each three times a day. She said I could walk on it, I'm just not supposed to do any kneeling or bend it too much. And she said I could work. How staying on my feet all day is good for my knee I have no idea but oh well. Either I don't know much, or my health care provider sucks ass and was just trying to get me out of there a.s.a.p. We'll see, won't we? Damn HMO's. The health care in this country fucking sucks.
Mee-imouto: Thanks for the hug! *hugs back* Heh. I'm so terrified of needles. I act like the biggest baby when I have to get one. Last time I had to get one I actually passed out afterwards. It's kind of funny now that I look back on it, but at the time it was embarrassing as all hell. ^_^
serena was here @ 11:26 AM
Well, I actually managed to get through a little more than half a day at work before I told the boss that I needed to come home. My knee is swollen and I can feel the fluid around my kneecap. It's kind of a creepy nasty feeling, actually. I called the doctor and made an appointment for first thing tomorrow morning. I have a feeling they are gonna want to keep me out of work for a while but I can't afford to do that right now. I'll just have to go in on light duty and find stuff to do in the office or something. Well, we'll see what happens.
I'm really scared because I have an extreme phobia of needles and I know they are probably going to draw fluid from my knee. Even thinking about it is making me woozy and I can feel a panic attack coming on. Gah.
And I'm so bored sitting here in my room already. Although, normally that's what I do anyway, but it's nice to have an option to something else. Every time I hobble downstairs my mother laughs because she says we're all falling apart. I keep telling her it's not freakin' funny. Rob was laughing at me at work as I limped by him and I told him if I could lift my leg high enough I'd kick his ass. Dammit, this is not funny people. Grrr.
How is it that I'm always sick or injured somehow? *sigh*
serena was here @ 6:11 PM
I am so fucked right now. My knee is killing me.
Back in March when I was getting ready for that uber visit at work, I was on my knees cleaning the bottoms of all the fixtures. Ever since then my left knee has been bothering me off and on, usually after I'd been kneeling to do something at work. Well, yesterday I crouched down to get something off of a bottom rack in lingerie for a customer and I heard something crack in there and all last night it started bothering me. It didn't hurt so much as feel really tight when I went to bend it all the way. Well, this morning it was worse and after being on my feet all day at work it's hurting like a motherfucker. It's swollen and i can feel that there's liquid in there that shouldn't be there. And I can't do anything about it right now. Tomorrow I have to work again and by the time I get off work my doctor's office is closed so I have to wait until friday to go to the doctors. As if I don't have enough things to deal with. It seems as though as long as I am on my feet I can deal with it but the moment I sit down and then try to get back up it hurts worse. I can just imagine what it's going to feel like when I wake up tomorrow. Dammit. I can't call out of work, either because I'm the manager on duty from 1-5. Maybe if I go in they'll make me go home early and then I won't get any points for leaving early. I doubt it though. Fucking slave drivers.
You know, I hope I can get my ass up off of this computer chair...otherwise it's going to be one hell of an uncomfortable night for me.
serena was here @ 11:07 PM
Damn, but I'm good at my job. I managed to impress my boss at the (horrendously long) staff meeting today. We all had to take turns explaining different parts of this booklet to the rest of the group and when I came to my part Keith said that I explained it better than most of the execs that he had seen do it. *pats self on back*
Ya know, I think I crave praise at work so much because I don't get much at home. Except from Jason. He tells me that I'm great all of the time, but for some reason when he says it I don't like it. I think he's just biased or something. Or maybe it's just that he tells me so much that I don't believe it anymore. I don't know. It could just be that I'm fucked in the head. XD
I'm in a pretty good mood right now. Well, for me anyway. I bought this little headband at work today that we're selling in the kid's department for the Fourth. It's a patriotic headband. It's got these two springs on top of it like antenna's and they have pinwheels attached to them so that when you walk they spin around. I had it on for most of the day, even during the staff meeting. It was fun. People really got a kick out of it. I think I might wear it again tomorrow. Actually, I heard that Keith moonwalked the other day at thier big district manager meeting and I was thinking of telling him that I'll wear it for the rest of the week if he'll do the moonwalk at our meeting on Sunday morning. Heh. He probably would anyway. He's crazy with all his winking and calling me kiddo.
My father stayed home from work today because he somehow broke his toe. He doesn't remember how though because he was drunk at the time. I know, it's hard to believe, isn't it? (that was sarcasm...heh.)
I had a really strange dream last night where I was camping. (That in itself is strange because I never go camping.) Anyway, it was a normal type of campground and there was a bunch of us staying in an RV. There were a lot of little kids staying with us, one of which was J's goddaughter. Then there were these evil trolls that would come out at night and try to kill us. It was all very weird. Although, I've been having a ton of weird dreams lately.
The other night I had one where I was arranging my barbies in the dollhouse that I inherited from my grandmother. But the barbies were too tall so we had to remove the roof of the dollhouse. Then I was going through these barbie clothes and picking out ones that I liked. For some reason I was at someone's house with Carrie and a bunch of guys. (My friend Carrie...whereever she goes lots of guys are sure to be there.) Anywho, there were two guys over by Carrie and they were watching tv, then one of them came over to me and said we only had nine minutes left and we should hurry up so we started making out. Dude, what the hell? I've been making out with all kinds of weirdos in my dreams lately. What is that supposed to mean? I told J all about it and he just laughed.
Mee-imouto: Thanks for the support. *hugs* I think I would make a good history teacher but kids kinda get on my nerves sometimes. Of course, people in general get on my nerves sometimes. XD I really think I'm going to take some classes this fall. I think it will make me feel like I'm accomplishing something. Don't worry so much about the depression. It's been coming and going for the last five years or so and I've kinda gotten used to it. I can usually tell when it's coming on now and I try not to let it get to me. ^_^
serena was here @ 8:09 PM
I've been feeling weird lately. Like I've suddenly realized that something major is missing in my life but I can't quite put my finger on what it is, if that makes any sense at all. I long for something unknown. Or maybe I do know somewhere in my subconcious and my waking self refuses to acknowledge it.
Or it could just be the beginning stages of depression. It's about time for another round. *shrugs*
Of course, I've been feeling dissatisfied with my life lately anyway. Mostly because of the pressure from Jason to get a better job (meaning a higher paying job) so that we can afford to move out together. (Although he's said he doesn't mind what I do, as long as I'm happy with what I do and as long as I'm satisfied. And, for the most part, I do feel like I'm succesful at my job. Of course, chimpanzees could probably run the Ready to Wear dept. of Sears as well as anyone.) Also, I'm constantly getting not so subtle feedback from my father on how much of a loser I am. Thanks Dad, I love you too.
Even when I'm having a good time, I'm not really having a good time. I keep feeling like there's something I should be doing. I think I want to go back to school in the fall. Maybe take up business, or technology or something. I think my far off dream of someday becoming a History teacher is slowly disintagrating before my eyes as each year goes by. I mean, look at me. I'm twenty five, I live with my parents, I don't drive and I work at a place where I'm a supervisor and I only make $10.07 an hour. I AM a loser. Oh well. At least I'm a loser who's the life of the party. Glass is half full. Yup.
serena was here @ 9:54 PM
I have to hurry because it's supposed to storm soon. Wee!
I just finished eating dinner; it's the first and only thing I've eaten all damn day. I started off the day miserable. I think I had a slight stomach flu or something. All I know is that I couldn't do anything I had planned because I spent almost six hours lying in bed or running to the bathroom. It sucked, to say the least.
Mom found a small army of ants invading her bedroom so she whipped out the poison and killed them all. Yay.
The last of the barbies I won on ebay arrived this afternoon. So, I had to rearrange them again. I'm running out of room on my shelf now. Heh.
Jason called, but we're not doing anything tonight because I told him that I had been sick most of the day and he said he thought I should rest. Dammit, that's what I've been doing all friggin' day!
My father and brother came home from work and managed to piss me off within the ten minutes of thier arrival. Go figure. At least they brought home some goodies: German beer glasses, some kind of imported beer from Lebanon, and some kind of Korean drinking glasses. They got all of these small imported liqour accounts at the warehouse and the clients always give them free stuff so it's cool. We're always getting free beer and wine. Handy for an alcoholic, no? Course, I haven't drank in ages. Mostly because I'm afraid that I might get to like it and then I'll end up like my father. But, after the day I've had, I think I could use a beer. Well, what the hell did I expect? It is friday the thirteenth.
Better go, the storm's a comin'.
serena was here @ 7:21 PM
Listening to Moody Blues 'Your Wildest Dreams'. I love this song. I was riding around with Jason the other day listening to the 80's station on XM radio and it came on and I remembered how much I loved it, so I downloaded it of course. XD It really must have been something like ten years since I had heard it. Weeee! *dances* Then I stared dling other Moody Blues stuff. They were one of those theatrical type bands, kinda like Yes. But they could rock, too. I told Jason today on our way home from dinner that they were like a cross between Yes and Blue Oyster Cult, but they definately had thier own weird thing going on. Damn! I just can't stop listening to this song! Weeee!
Work was ok and all that. Keith took us softlines managers around to certify us for the new Customer Service Manager program. I was my usual over enthusiastic (read that as 'kiss ass') self and scored TONS of brownie points. Keith said I was brilliant and he wouldn't be surprised to see me as a store manager in a few years. Oh yeah. Really, I don't have a big head or anything. Nope. Heh. XDXD Seriously though, I admit I'm good at what I do. I need to learn to manage my people better though, because right now I do so much myself instead of entrusting it to them. I guess it's just because I know that if I do it, it'll get done right. And now there's all this new stuff going on with the schedules; it's a nightmare. I really wish what I could do was get rid of almost everyone we have and just start from scratch because everyone that has worked for us for so long is so resistant to change. Damn them and thier old fashioned ways. If they don't wanna change then we'll have to let them go soon anyway. It's sad, but it's the way it is. You know, as much as I complain about work (and the fact that the pay SUCKS ASS), I really like what I do.
Dinner with Jason was fun. My suggestion so I payed. It's only fair. He's using all of his money to pay off his credit like a good little boy, anyway. We went to Outback. Yum. Desert was especially delish. I love ice cream. ^_^
We've been lucky the last couple of days; it's been extremely nice outside. I'm so happy about that. In fact, I think it's why my mood has improved so much. Unfortunately, it's supposed to rain again tomorrow or something. Ah well. I hope it's nice out this weekend because I have off. Muahahahaha! An entire weekend off! Happy Happy Joy Joy!!! *dances the jig of joy* Of course, I promised J that I'd go to his goddaughter's dance recital on Saturday afternoon. Yeah, like that's how I want to spend my time. I guess it's just one of those things that you have to do every once and a while for your friends, though. But, dammit, they're not my friends, they're J's. I really don't even like Kayla. She's such a spoiled brat. Then again, J did promise to go to the party my aunt and uncle are throwing when my cousin Rhiannon comes to visit in July. So, I guess it all evens out. I just like to complain because I can. And because I'm a selfish spoiled bitch. XD
Ah well. Hmm. I think I'll listen to some Pink Floyd now.
Oh, and Mee-imouto: It's not so much that I have a problem *connecting* with my family, it's that I choose to distance myself from them. They are good people, no matter what crazy things I say about them, and I love them of course but I my relationship with my parents is strange sometimes. I guess because I've lost some respect for them because of certain choices they've made in life and sometimes I feel like they don't care enough about themselves to want to get help. I see my parents as human people that have made human mistakes. Not to say my boyfriend hasn't ever had problems with his parents but they are usually petty superficial disagreements whereas my situation is a little bit different. ^_^
serena was here @ 7:59 PM
It's GORGEOUS outside. So, why then did I spend much of the day in my room? Because I have no where to go. *sigh*
I wish Jason would have been able to get off, then we could have went on a mini road trip or something. Ah well. At least we might hang out tonight and do something. I don't know, he hasn't called and it's almost five. He must have been really busy today. I hope he wants to do something because I haven't seen him for a week and even then we only went to dinner with his parents. As much as I love J's rents I'd rather just spend time with him sometimes, but he's all bonded and stuff with his family. He always wants to do stuff with them, or hang out with his brother. I guess I'm just not as close to my family as he is to his, so it feels weird. Not to say I'm not close with my family, it's just that how I relate to my family is much different than how he relates to his. I mean, I could move to some far off place and have little to do with them and not really mind so much. But I have a feeling that if J and I ever get a house together (something we're planning on) then his mom will be over a lot.
Gah. I've been so unproductive today. Well, at least I did a little light cleaning. That's something, I guess.
I'm going to go back to jamming with ELT now.
serena was here @ 4:57 PM
Finally got around to setting up at deviant art. Woohoo. I submitted some of my photographs so far. I'll probably upload more stuff later in the week. Yay, I'm being productive. Go me.
serena was here @ 11:09 PM
Jammin' to Sugar Ray again. Ever since the concert I've been really into them. Weee! *busts a move*
Another boring day at work. Sales have been down so much because of the weather. No one wants to come out in the rain, I guess. The weather is dragging me down, down, down into a pit. I'm so tired and unmotivated.
I've been having weird dreams lately. A couple of nights ago I had this one where I was walking down a hallway next to this cute blonde guy. He looked like he was about eighteen or nineteen. He was blind and I kept feeling like I was being careful cuz I didn't want to bump into him. Next thing I know I'm making out with him. Where the hell did that come from? Then last night I had a dream about work and some shoplifter trying to get one over on me, but of course I was too clever for the likes of that bitch and I turned her ass into Asset Protection. She was leaving the store and heard me on the phone with A.P. and she came up and got in my face and threatened me. I was scared, but then I thought, 'Hey, just punch the bitch.' Er...then I woke up. Maybe I'm just working out my various frustrations in my dreams. Heh.
*waves to Danielle* Weeeeeeee! Hey, I want my squirl shirt! lol
Ah well, I guess I'll go back to jammin' now. Oh yeah.
serena was here @ 6:56 PM
Work was boring today. Bleh.
I'm jamming to Sugar Ray. Wee.
I feel discombobbulated.
My next door neighbor just called for my mom and I had to go track her down. She was out back talking to someone on a motorcycle. It was my uncle. I didn't know he got a motorcycle. He's been coming over a lot since my aunt broke up with him. It's weird. I never realized that he was close with my mom. Ah well.
serena was here @ 9:49 PM
I just spent the last hour rearranging my Barbies on my shelves. I moved the top shelf up so that I had room to put the Barbies in the back on the bottom on risers so that there is maximum Barbie viewage. I then arranged them in semi-groupings. I put some of my historical types together, then there are my Springy might be going to a garden party types, then the girls in evening attire. I put some of my assorted Barbies on my top shelf because they don't really have anywhere to fit on the bottom shelf.
It looks pretty damn good if I do say so myself. And it helped me work out my frustrations. I feel much better now.
*huggles Mee-imouto* Heh. Don't worry, you see how quickly my mood changes? I may be easily irritated, but at least it doesn't last long. XD Oh, and I totally believe that he forgot. That man forgets everything. Tis one of the things thats so irritating. Ah well.
*goes back to admiring Barbies*
serena was here @ 7:37 PM
My boyfriend is sooooo fucking irritating. He knew he had to go into work this weekend to finish payroll, he knew I was working all day yesterday and that I was going over Greg's to spend the night last night. He knew I was going to be at the flea market this morning. And yet, what does the idiot do? He waits until now to go up to his fucking work. When I'm fucking home. &%$#^%$^&%E8 R^&$#^$7 ^%$^%$^&!
Stupid fucking bastard. Fine then. Maybe I won't want to spend time with his stupid fucking ass at all this week. Maybe I won't want to spend time with him at all, period. Bastard. Fucker. I'm so pissed. Like the fucker couldn't have went in to work yesterday so that we could spend time together today.
Flea marketing went well. Unloaded all of my junk and got $150 for it. Of course, I went and spent $50 on barbies, but I got a good deal on them. Greg and I got up at four o'clock this morning just to go there and get set up so because I'm tired I'm twice as irritable as normal. Well, I'm always irritable anyways. Sometimes it seems like every little thing pisses me off. Mom just came up to tell me dinner's ready and I yelled at her. That's how irritated I am. Well, she should know better anyway. She made some kind of yucky cabbage thing and I hate cabbage. *spits at cabbage*
Well, I geuss I'll work on improving my mood.
serena was here @ 1:11 PM