Infinitesimal version the second


Gah. Tired. Must. Sleep.

Gah. *zzzzzzzzzzzzz*

serena was here @ 12:13 AM


I'm working on a comic strip about the ferris wheel incident from when I was on vacation. Here is the first strip. I'll post more later.

serena was here @ 4:01 PM


I feel so much better today. Even after the hellish day I had at work, I feel pretty good. I think it's mainly due to the fact that I have off Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Woo-hoo. My eight day work streak is over. I'm so exhausted. I really could just collapse onto my bed and not move again til morning, but there are things that I want to get done.

There is also a lot that I want to accomplish during my days off.

~Work on my fanfics. (There are two esca ones and one sm one that I want to work on.)

~Work on my music videos/figure out how to get my hookup to work.

~Clean my room. (bleh)

Hmm...I think that's it. Oh, and I want to finish that book and start the other one.

Sometime this weekend I'm going to hang out with Jason. Oh, and my brother's birthday is Saturday and I completely forgot until my uncle reminded me. I don't know what to get him so I think that I'll invite him out for dinner and a movie. That should be fun. Yay, sibbling bonding.

serena was here @ 10:42 PM


Why do I cry after I talk to Jason all of the time? Why am I so miserable? He loves why do I feel like shit?

I tell him my schedule all of the time...he always forgets and makes plans with other people. I have off all weekend and I'm looking forward to spending time with him. I asked him what we're going to do this weekend and he says 'Anything you want...except for Friday night; I'm going bowling with Andy on Friday.' I'm so upset...and I don't know why. Ok, I do know. It's because I've been missing spending time with him so much...I've hardly seen him at all lately and I was looking foward to it soooo much...and he just has other plans all of the time lately. And I know that he's not purposely avoiding me or anything. But it hurts just the same. He said 'You can come with us if you want', almost as an afterthought. I know he probably didn't invite me in the first place because he knows how uncomfortable I get in those types of social situations where I have to hang out with people that I hardly know...but still, it would have been nice of him to inform me of his plans so that I wouldn't have been thinking 'Yay, I get to spend time with Jason on Friday!' I asked him when he got invited to go and he said sometime last he's known for a while. I asked him why he didn't tell me sooner and he said he didn't think it was important. He complains that he misses me, but sometimes (from my pov at least) it seems like he doesn't make an effort to spend time with me. I know I'm blowing things out of proportion; I mean we still have all day Saturday and all day Sunday to be together...but my heart is hurting so bad right now.

I'm so disappointed.

I can't stop crying.

I'm being over emotional.

I'm having a breakdown.

So sometimes I think that all this hurting all the time would go away if we just stopped seeing each other. I don't want to hurt. I don't want to cry......but I don't know if being alone would be any better...

serena was here @ 12:05 AM


I've been very moody for the last couple of days. I've gone from overjoyed to depressed to angry all in the space of a few minutes. I'm exhausted.

I've finished watching all of Fruits Basket...and yes, it was the cutest thing ever. Hmm, when I make my bumper sticker, I think I'll put a pic from Fruits Basket on it. Wee~ XD

Kelly's mom's cat had kittens again and today she brought them into work to try to give them away to people. They were sooooo cute. I was holding one for a little while. I didn't want to give it back. I would have kept it, but my dad doesn't want any more cats in the house. He keeps saying he's waiting for the ones we have now to die so that he can fix up the house and get new furniture and stuff. I would have gotten one and kept it in my room but a) my room is cluttered with too much junk that a cat would get into and mess up and b) Jason is allergic and when we finally move out together (if we finally move out together) than a cat is not an option. Even though he told me that he would go a head and suffer just because he knows I love cats. But he's not being realistic...he's really really allergic. We stayed over my cousin's house for the weekend once to watch her cats and he could barely breathe by the end of the weekend. Ok, maybe part of that was my fault. I got mad cuz he stole the blanket in the middle of the night (like I wouldn't even notice) and so I asked him if he wanted another blanket and gave him the blanket that the cats had been sleeping all over. I'm evil.

TODAY'S RECOMMENDATION: Any trashy romance by Julie Garwood. Actually, her romances aren't that trashy...and her characters are always way too perfect...but I love reading them. My favorite is 'The Prize.' Yeah, so I like reading Historical Romance novels...wanna make something of it? XD

serena was here @ 10:25 PM


Sorry I haven't blogged for the past couple days. I've been busy watching Fruits Basket over and over again. Wee~

I got my cable internet hooked up. Yay me! Now I can be on the net and talk on the phone at the same time. Woo-hoo! Yeah, I know. It doesn't take much to make me happy.

I'm kind of annoyed right now. I just found out that has banned all NC-17 fics from now on. I totally understand their reasons for doing something like that, and it is thier site after all, but it still makes me upset. I don't think it's fair to the people that have written really tasteful fics that happen to contain mature content. Granted, there are a lot of fics in that category that are written just for the pure fun of writing smut...but some of us enjoy reading smut, dammit. And some of us are actually old enough to read smut. Grr.

serena was here @ 11:40 AM


I'm back from my trip. Woo. Hoo.

The beach was very nice. The weather was absolutely perfect for hanging on the beach. It wasn't too hot and the water was warm (once you got over the initial shock of course.)

Day One:

I wake up at 7:30 because of D walking in and out of the room. Bleh. I had only gotten to sleep five hours before. Breakfast, then my Aunt and I visit the beach. I wear shorts and a tee shirt because a) I don't think it's going to be that hot and b) I can't find my bathing suit because my cousin packed it in with her things and I'm too lazy to go digging for it. We go on a mad search for hermit crabs, but fail to find any. I challenge myself to see how far I can go in the water without getting my shorts isn't very far. Finally, after the tide goes out a little pocket of water forms on the beach because of a sandbar. Success! I find my first hermit crab. I call my aunt over excitedly and we take it back to the blanket and watch it do nothing for about forty minutes or so. Because that's what hermit crabs do...nothing. We say goodbye to our little friend and release him (or her) back into the wild and head back to the condo. I check out my new pink skin and we all sit around and do nothing for a good long while. Then, cousin S arrives and we all head down to the boardwalk. Wee. We eat all kinds of things that taste good but are bad for us. They talk me into getting on the Giant Ferris Wheel. I am afraid of heights, but I decide to join them. The ride operators stuff all five of us into one cart and I flip out. The ride takes off as I'm screaming at the operator "Are you *sure* this is safe?" I hold on for dear life while everyone amuses themselves by mocking me. After 'the ordeal' we have a seat and laugh at the people on a virtual reality ride. (This was funny as hell.) We head up to the Plim Plaza and hang with the crowd for awhile before heading home for the night.

Day Two:

I am awoken at 8:30 for breakfast. Don't you guys know how to sleep in? This *is* vacation, after all. More beach, more searching for hermit crabs. Everyone comes this time but they all poop out early except for my aunt and me. We stick around and I find out the hard way that you should cover *every* part of your body with sunscreen. Especially that tender part behind your knees because it hurts like a bitch when you get burned there. We head back to the place and do nothing for about five hours. I take the opportunity to zone out and listen to cd's. Of course, I can't completely fall asleep because the air conditioning is really cold. (A little bit lower and I could have seen my breath.) I earn the title 'Blanket Girl' because of being bundled up from chin to toes. S leaves, taking his nifty cell phone with him. Darn. No more free nights and weekends. We go to dinner at J.R.'s. The menu consists of a) Ribs b) steak and c) a few seafood items. Hmm, don't like ribs (they're too messy), don't like fish (the bones freak me out) so I guess I'm going with steak. It was damn good steak. "Them cows are mighty fine eatin'!" We go back to the condo and digest. Uncle goes to a meeting and us girls head out to the boardwalk. We check out a few of the shops and spend some time in the arcade. I spend five dollars on the claw machine and win nothing. (Bastard machine was rigged somehow....that's it.) Cuz D wins over 300 tokens, but see's nothing to her liking because all the prizes are *JUNK*. Really. You have to get like 10,000 tokens for a cheap ass ten dollar porceline doll. We visit Souvenir City where I buy a plastic turtle for my brother and a cool ass kung-fu hamster. Oh yeah. I'm naming him Bob. We head home for the night.

Day Three:

I am awoken by my Cuz. When I groan 'what time is it?' she tells me it's after seven. I think 'oh, what a relief. It's after seven.' I roll out of bed. We eat breakfast and then clean up the condo and pack our things into our vehicles. We say goodbye to Ocean City. D and I cruise the whole way home with the top down and the stereo blasting. We make it home in record time.

serena was here @ 12:03 AM


*sings* Wee~

Going away today. I have to pack. Don't forget to take a pillow.


Snacks....damn. Have to go to store.

Have to get butt in gear. XD

Seriously, I'm leaving in *looks a clock* five hours so I have to get packing. Wee, procrastination. Hmmm. Richard! That's it! For your band, I'll write a song about procrastination...cuz it's something I know a lot about. ^_~

Hm, so if anyone really wants to know, I'll be back on Sunday...but probably not online again til Monday. Wee~ The Ocean. I promise not to drown. ^_^

And, I promise
you that I'll be thinking of lots of Esca stuff to work on when I get back. Wee~

serena was here @ 11:39 AM


I was plagued by technical difficulties in editing my family's vacation videos earlier. Now it will have to wait until I get back from the ocean. *growls at 'puter*

I've been thinking about my approach to my Van/Hitomi fic and I think I have it all worked out. I will keep a notepad handy while on vacation. I am determined to write the thing when I get back.

Wow, the list of things to do when I get back is steadily growing. Hmm.

I'm also planning to do some more anime music videos as soon as I can clear up the technical difficulties. I think really what it boils down to is that I need more RAM. Must get more RAM. Bwee. Something else to do when I get home.

TODAY'S RECOMMENDATION: A wonderful little cd I bought today, 'Heaven' by DJ Sammy. There's two really cool remakes of the Bryan Adams' hit on there, plus a remake of California Dreamin'. Woo-hoo. I love dance music.

serena was here @ 11:35 PM

Wee~ I am so not tired. I don't know why but I'm really hyper. Hmm, could be due to the fact that I have off work for more than a week starting today. Wee~ XD

I have so many fic bunnies right now. In no particular order.
~Tomoyo songfic
~FY fic. focusing on Taitsukun. (I have to write this one eventually.)
~Esca songfic.

I may actually fic instead of getting things done that I'm supposed to tomorrow....well, later today. XD Wee~

*bounces merrily away*

serena was here @ 1:11 AM


Hehehehe. Guess what I found out today? Hehehehe. Dave, that jerk at work that I can't stand....hehehehe. His middle name is Seman (pronounced like 'seamen'). HAHAHAHAHAHA. I said, "How appropriate, since he's such a complete dick."

Hmm, the universe works in mysterious ways. XD

serena was here @ 11:24 PM


Woo-hoo. I went on a shopping spree today. Ok, well it wasn't a real spree. But I did manage to get a some really nice stylish pants for work, and also a nice black skirt to go with the top I bought yesterday. Wee~ Really, I'm just happy because I got to spend time with Jason. We almost got into an argument because he bought this necklace for me when I told him not to. I don't like it when he spends lots of money on me like that. He should save it so that he can be me a house instead. XD

I also bought Queen of the Damned. I have mixed feelings about this movie. As an Anne Rice fan I am upset because the movie was crappy compared to the book; so much was changed...some of it didn't make sense at all. I was not pleased. HOWEVER, if I had not read the book (about a million times XD) then I would have really enjoyed the movie. The movie, by itself, was actually pretty good. Well, from what I remember at any rate (I was pretty well occupied drooling through a lot of it so...)

Jason and I are very excited because Brotherhood of the Wolves comes out on dvd in October. When we were at Suncoast today Jason asked the guy when it came out and then we struck up a conversation with him about how good the movie was and how much of a shame it was that it didn't do real well in theaters here. Yeah, we bonded in those few minutes while he was ringing us up. XD Actually I've talked to him before about anime when I was shopping in there a different time.

ME: Yeah, that guys really nice. He's cute, too.
JASON: Hey! What about me? Aren't I cute?
ME: Yeah, yeah.
JASON: *pouts*
ME: Aww. *pats Jason's head*

TODAY'S RECOMMENDATION: Well, since I'm off to watch it now, I'll recommend Queen of the Damned. Although, if you haven't read the book and you'd like to enjoy the movie, I'd recommend watching the movie first. ^_~

serena was here @ 8:13 PM


I am going to kick my brother's ass.

Anyway, thanks for hanging out and driving me around, Richard. I really had fun listening to the D with ya. Even though I was disappointed we couldn't find Jason's present. Oh well. It's all ruined anyway because of my stupid ass brother.

Jason came over and we were up in my room and my brother was there on my computer. Anyway, I told J that we had went looking for his present but that we couldn't find it. Then my brother goes, "Oh, you mean that music instrument he wants?" Damn his stupid ass! (I know he did it on purpose, because he had this shit-eating grin plastered on his face and he was like "Oops...". Bastard!) Of course J knew what he was talking about. Now he knows what I'm getting him and it ruins the suprise and all.........damn, I'm listening to Bryan Adams and I just got off track of what I was saying. XD *is singing along with the song*

Hmm, maybe I should get checked for A.D.D.

serena was here @ 11:04 PM

Work wasn't bad today. I'm sort of upset because one of the managers that I like is leaving to go to another store. It's a big promotion for her so I'm happy for her, but it kind of sucks for our store. :(

I had to close the store with Dave tonight. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be; I only had to restrain myself from hitting him once or twice. Then, at the end of the night he told me an amusing tale about the place he used to work at and I actually laughed. Am I a traitor to myself?

serena was here @ 12:17 AM


*is happy*

Yesterday Jason took me to the Rennaisance festival. I'd never been there before so it was really fun. I wasn't expecting it to be so big for some reason. For those of you that don't live around me, the Rennaisance festival is held every year here for about six or eight weekends during September and October. The people that run it all dress up in period costumes and are in character the whole time they are there. It's actually pretty cool. There are alot of shows to watch (I had fun watching some of the comedy shows), lots of food on sticks, and lots of cool shops. A lot of the people that go there dress up also. There were a lot of guys in kilts. Yummy. XD There was some performer there that walked a tightrope as part of his act....and he was wearing a kilt. I kept trying to look up it, but I couldn't get close enough. XD

At one of the booths I found some really cool earcuffs, so I bought one. At another booth they had some that went around your whole ear. I bought a smaller dragon one. It clips onto the side of my ear with it's little claws and hangs on for dear life. I want to go back and get some bigger ones. Wee~

serena was here @ 8:35 PM

part of the Inuyasha marathon


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This layout features Inuyasha, the (currently slightly grouchy) character from the series of the same name. Fonts are Velvet and Redensek, brushes are from Nocturna and Brushy. This layout was coded by Sophie for the Inuyasha marathon.

Inuyasha blog marathon:



~ethereal melody
~lucid dreaming
~omnikartera whamasu
~shameless name dropping
~stream of conscious
~w n p?

~in passing...

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~never knew
~fate martyr sapheire


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~mr. t vs escaflowne
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